I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this opportunity to see shining examples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the first time in a long while, I do not feel alone.
Part of me wanted to stay longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I would be doing so for the wrong reason; as a way to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights. What I’m about to share was not yet clear at that time; only on the drive away did it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have let you see inside. Don’t want it troubling your mind, won’t you let it be?” This confused me as I could not think of anything that I had said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I had in coming to the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere with its residents’ peace of mind, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for many years, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness soon after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief is being (has been?) released.
There are other things that happened that felt important, but I can’t think of them right now.
Ever since I first became conscious of the grand and awe-inspiring existence of God, I’ve liked examining many amazing spiritual operates such as the Bible (my favorite parts will be the Sermon on the Install and Psalms), the Bhagavad-Gita, the Upanishads, the Koran and the poetry of Kabir and Rumi. Not one of them come near to the wonder of a Course in Miracles. Studying it with an open brain and heart, your fears and difficulties clean away. You feel aware of a wonderful love serious within you – greater than what you realized before. The future begins to seem therefore bright for you personally and your loved ones. You feel passion for everybody else including those you previously have tried to leave excluded. These activities are very powerful and sometimes toss you off harmony a little, but it’s worth it: A Program in Miracles introduces you to a love therefore peaceful, so solid and so universal – you’ll question how therefore most of the world’s religions, whose intention is apparently the same knowledge, got so off track.
I would like to state here to any Christian who thinks that his church’s teachings don’t really meet his thirst to understand a type, merciful and supportive God, but is notably scared to see the Program as a result of others’ statements it is sporadic with “true” Christianity: Don’t worry! I’ve see the gospels often and I promise you that a Program in Wonders is wholly in line with Jesus’ teachings while he was on earth. Don’t anxiety the fanatical defenders of exclusionist dogma – these bad persons believe themselves to be the only real companies of Jesus’ information, and the only types worthy of his benefits, while all other should go to hell. A Course in Miracles reflects Jesus’ true information: unconditional love for *all people*. While he was in the world, Jesus believed to determine a tree by its fruit. So give it a decide to try and see the way the fruits that ripen in your lifetime taste. Should they style poor, you are able to abandon A Class in Miracles. But when they taste as sweet as quarry do, and the countless different true seekers who are finding A Class in Miracles to be nothing less than a incredible treasure, then congratulations – and might your center continually be abundantly filled up with peaceful, loving joy.